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| can i hold on?
Thursday 17 April 2014 | 08:22 | 0 Sweet Cupcake
I dont know can i still hold on?i have enough of my life now. all i do is pay this pay that. until half year never go out with friend. just work and work in half year i only remember i go out 2 time? or 1 time that all. no like other. go out every month. i feel like going back to past when i was sec 2-3 start at home playing computer reading book and be alone. i dun wish to go back. but do i have the choice for it? no. what should i do? anyway i want put the cbox on my blog but keep fail. i guess i am useless. now i keep remember about my past. my father keep say i am stupid, hopeless and useless then my brother until he passed away. now is my relative turn. i keep hear this for 8 year when can i get out from there? REALLY WHEN CAN I GET OUT FROM THIS HELL. Have alot of time i just wanted to jump down. but i keep think who will take care of my mum and my brother. only me give mummy money and pay for everything. in my relative i am just a useless and bad girl. in my friend heart i am just a bad friend who keep reject them for not going out. i keep reject them because i dun have enough cash to go out. but now they hate me. and one by one ignore me. now i feel like a bad girl, i am a bad friend, i am a bad child to my family, my relative and my friend. how i wish this admin "hell girl" is real so that i can just send myself to hell... all i can say i dun want to be alive pray for korea
| 01:07 | 0 Sweet Cupcake
let pray for korea.hope 209 people will be found. church friend(?)
Wednesday 16 April 2014 | 02:23 | 0 Sweet Cupcake
All of u asked.Did i went back to church and why didnt went back to church? And some of u asked mr i though u say ur church friend will alway be there for u, but i xidnt see u talking with or chat with them, they hate u right. Cause u are betray. Maybe u are i betray them(?) For not going back to church and give them false hope to coming back to church. But what can i do. I having work. I know on weekend i have off. But i wanted to go back. This is on my mind they will not answer my phone or reply me I did sms them but didnt reply I guess they give up on me What can i do about it now.. There is nothing i can do. I guess i go back and listens and just walk back home All i can do i know
| 00:41 | 0 Sweet Cupcake
I know that i will get hater.Cause they say i am dramtics, act to be poor. I have question for u! Do u know me well ? Do u understand me well? Do u know what i need? If u dunno anything please get away from my freaking LIFE. I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.. They ask why dont go out with ur friend Why dont go concert with ur friend. This is what i say. When i ask them, they say they are busy But u say because i am drama queen so that they dont want go out with me. Is that ture? I really dont know now. I have ignore alot of time. What should i do about it..... freedom
Tuesday 15 April 2014 | 13:23 | 0 Sweet Cupcake
Since when i have my freedom?when father passed away. i keep working and working. why they keep say i have enough of my freedom. they only think about my brother and my mother. they will never think about me. they dont even ask me about it. i keep have this thought, what am i for this family. and i to be believe about it. even alot of people dont believe me. all i can say i only believe in myself. i believe what i see. haix i really dont what to say now. HOPELESS
Monday 7 April 2014 | 20:41 | 0 Sweet Cupcake
I have lost all hope. i am hopeless. i am useless. like what my mum say i am just a useless daughter. i dunno who am now. whatever i do is just very hopeless. how i wish i am dead now. on Sec 4 i should have jump down. why they save me. end up become hopeless. i am nothing. i am just a hopeless daughter, useless daughter a girl who never study. not smart like my brother. whole family love my brother then me. everything i just keep to myself. i not going to tweet or post whatever happens to me or blog what happens to me. is hopeless. haha... no one can help me anyway. why not i just keep it to myself. stress myself. talk to myself. be happy by myself. is hopeless to say all this thing. I AM JUST A STUPID, HOPELESS AND USELESS GIRL LIKE EVERYONE SAY. ANYWAY I AM JINX :D LIFE
Saturday 5 April 2014 | 03:59 | 0 Sweet Cupcake
Life is unfair.but sometime i am think.. there is alot of world like UNFAIR WORLD STRESS WORLD FAKE WORLD REAL WORLD which world are u in? UNFAIR WORLD my life is really unfair my brother can study, can learn car and do anything he want. not like me my relative keep say i am elder sister i have work for family only what is mean of this... i cant study, i cant learn car i cant do anything i want. i work so hard is just for them? i know i am elder i must work for it but do they know what i want? what i need? even i work this much is still not enough for my family. next year my brother going to poly. then what am i? a useless sister without any cert. STRESS WORLD working stress. family stress, i forever stay in stress world i cant even get out for it. T.T FAKE WORLD I have alot of fake friend around me.. i forever get betrayed and get forgotten. they always will forgotten about me. is the best now i forgotten about them i have no point to talk with them waiting for them to reply my text. they will ignore it. what for i call them or text them? i really dun need them to with me anymore. REAL WORLD Some of my friend they are True Real Friend they are always be there for u! chat with u! ask u how are u doing? how is work, but now i very less get this question. because they are study having exam not like me. i have to work only. there is nothing much i can do. i even dunno what am i now. i even dunno what to do now. i wish can be like the old them we can chat together, we can shopping together. i really missing them. in my REAL WORLD only have few best friend and be myself. there is nothing much i really can do about it. i can be happy is listens to infinite song and watch infinite video. PEOPLE WILL CHANGE. IF I CAN CHANGE. DUN ASK ME WHY. CAUSE HUMAN WILL CHANGE WHO THEY ARE. EVEN I COLD TO ANYONE. \ PLEASE THINK WHAT U DID. DUN KEEP ASK WHY U ARE COLD TO ME I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE BETRAY PEOPLE. THERE IS NOT POINT FOR ME TO WITH BETRAYER. I HATE BETRAYER. BIG NEWS! INFINITE IS THE FIRST KPOP WHO HAVE INSTRUMENT ALBUM AND IS LIMITED EDITION :D INSPIRIT GET YOURS NOW :D INFINITE IS HAVING COME BACK STAGE SOON IN END OF APRIL... LET WAIT FOR THEM :D INFINITE FIGHTING <3 I MISS U :( SARANGHAEYO <3 :) |